Earlier today I ran into an old friend from school and talked to her for a bit. Later on as I finished work and made my way home the bus I was on passed her house and I got to thinking. All we did was small talk barely anything of worth was said, what if we talked seriously, told everything we wanted to say to the other what would I say?
Here’s what I wuold tell her.
I would tell her that even though I liked her in school I don’t any longer.
I would tell her that I wish we were friends but that that will never happen.
I would tell her about how i made a point to text and talk to everyone once I left school but the second I lost my phone i never heard from any of them again even though I had the same number.
I would tell her that even though someone went to school with us died (which I am sorry for by the way) I still think he was an ass.
i would tell her that i actually feel like the only people who would miss me if I disappear is my mom and brother everyone else would only be momentarily upset or not care at all.
I would tell her that even though I suspect the people i hung around with at school (even her) only tolerated me and that thought tears me up inside I still miss those times.
i would tell her that I am still very sorry about what I said that one time and i was never happier than when she started talking to me again (funnily enough it was right around my birthday though i dont think anyone knew it. It was the best present i got that year)
I would tell her that she is right she is not that beautiful, she is not that amazing or wonderful but she is a kind person, she cares about people (a bit too much sometimes) she is a talented writer, at her worst I would consider her a 5 looks wise but if she did herself up she would be a 9 or 10, i would tell her that no matter what she or anyone else says she is a great person and dies not deserve all the shit she has gone through.
i would say all of that and more and you know what I realised? i realised that growing up sucks, not because I have to support myself or I drift apart from everyone but that illusion of happiness is no longer there. i realised that I am miserable with my life and i realised that if I am miserable how must she feel? she has had it worse than me, how does she go on living? I don’t know how and i dont know why but Zoe I wish i could help ease the pain you may be going through.
To all my followers the hundreds of millions of them around the world I offer this simple piece of advice. Do not ride a scooter going 40-50 kmph into the back of a car. It hurts. Seriously it hurts like hell don’t do it.It happened last night and I got off lightly no broken bones or anything yet i can barely walk down the stairs cause of the pain. So again don’t do it.
P.S. God bless helmets.
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did you know that cats rub their faces against things that they claim as their territory so if they rub against your face youve just been named an honorary member of that cat’s family like wow thank you cat
i love when people steal my text posts
my brothers cat rubs it’s face against the toilet
i just figured out the perfect murder
kill someone and bury them in their own garden
that way if the police find them they’ll think it was a suicide
#welp looks like the victim committed suicide and promptly buried themselves in their garden #how considerate of them
"And that is why I killed myself, chopped myself up and put myself in the garbage" it worked then why can’t it work in this case?